9414 Steps
The woman at work who is training me leaves tomorrow and I am all on my own. Once again. "Sure just walk out that door and leave me here." But isn't that the way it is supposed to be? The natural order of things? She says she is off to have a baby. And here I will be. All alone. With a desk, a pencil and 24 hours, 7 days a week of blankness that I have to fill in with compelling television selections.
It is funny how life is when I (or anyone else for that matter) thinks about it. Here is this woman who lives in New Jersey (and she is FANTASTIC by the way. Truly someone I think I may want to be: patient, kind, smart.) Where was I? Oh...lives in New Jersey and she and her husband decide to have relations one night and that is essentially why I am in New York City. When I meet this child I will tell him that he changed my life because he did. I moved 3000 miles because someone I never met before got pregnant. And I am grateful for that wee bundle. Thanks, E or H. (That is all I know is that his name will start with either of those two letters.)
So today I had to write an e-mail to Legal and to my boss that included the words "cunnilingus" and "erection." I haven't written those two words on the same page since I was 29 years old and had a very big decision to make! Besides being the program scheduler, I am also the Standards department and I supply the TV rating to anything not rated. There is this Scottish film that I happened to see at the Sundance Film Festival this year that has both those items in it. And we are planning to air it so I had to draw someone else's attention to it besides my own. It is not a sexy movie at all, but these actors put Robert DeNiro getting fat on purpose for "Raging Bull" to shame. Getting up for the part and going down on someone in character! That is dedication to one's craft. How many takes?!!
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There's a great Rufus Wainwright song called "11.11" that now I think of whenever I see that time. It's to me about how I am spending my life in that moment--I think he wrote it about the twin towers--notice 11:11 looks like them--Lyrics:Woke up this morning and something was burning
Realized that everything really does happen in Manhattan
Thoughts were of characters and afternoons lying
And you, you were alive
Oh the hours we are separate
11:11 is just precious time we've wasted
Anyhow--it's the time you posted, so I thought of that, but really wanted to say--good luck!
And when I saw POLA and Gerard Depardie's son was performing acts like those you mentioned, I thought "is there stage cunnilingus?" and "well, that really throws out the gays, huh?" :)
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